All the problems with the 1st year of adulthood.
Everyother guy. Seriously EVERY OTHER guy wants to my boyfriends so badly. I just want him. And he doesn’t care. Time and effort? My ass no txt in 2 days. This isn’t me. I don’t care about this shit. He made me fucking care. I cant be like this. I feel crazy. I cant do this. Emotions suck. he kept talking about a future… a relationship… one month down the line… two… three. I didnt freak out. Hes the ONLY FUCKING guy who gives me this feeling. I wish I wanted scott like this. But nick keeps me up at night. I want him. I want to be his. I never EVER want that. But I want a relationship for the 1st fucking time. Why him. Why do I feel like this. Why do I want him. He isn’t a good guy. He might not EVEN FUCKING LIKE ME. And I just want him. I want him so badly that I want to cry. Its fucked up. MORE THEN FUCKED up. Why the hell do I feel like this. I was staying away. One moment of weakness and its like im completely fallen. I hate liking him. And you know what I was fucking warned. I am stupid. I hate this. I hate wanting to listen to taylor swift. I hate wanting noting more then for him to message me. I hate posting things on fb hoping he will see it. I hate being like my friends with boys. I hate careing. I used to be the girl who didn’t care enough but fuck now I have emotions and idk what to fucking do. I need help. I need to stop liking him but fuck I;ve fallen. HARD. And im nothing to him.
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